So today has been a strange one and I am going to try and write this post without upsetting too many people.
When I first got into the CP scene I was not very comfortable with dressing as a schoolgirl. I did it but I always had my reservations. I guess the more you do something you get used to it and I actually started to enjoy regressing and acting out this type of scene. It is also a very popular roleplay, so I found myself doing it often. I will admit that one of my favorite films, is of me dressed like a schoolgirl.
So why the sudden change of heart?
On my journey to a shoot the other day my heart sank. I just did not want to dress as a schoolgirl. I feel I cannot play this role anymore. I am too old to be dressing up in a school uniform and acting like a brat. I am 33 years old. I understand the fact that people have their first feelings towards someone in a school uniform. I understand that people like to play out adult school girl fantasies, but I do not want to play this role anymore. I just cannot do it. Watching the news tonight I felt sick when I heard something that I will not go into. I thought to myself, that is it, no more.
So where does that leave me on adult school scenes?
I am not too sure at the moment. Would it make me a hypocrite to still be a teacher in a scene? I guess that is something I will have to work out myself. For now I am still comfortable with that, that may change. You see the thing is, as we grow in age, I guess we change and evolve.
This is probably career suicide, but I would not be being true to myself if I did things that I was no longer comfortable with.
In writing this I did not mean to upset anyone who enjoys this role-play this is just my own personal feelings and limits.
When I first got into the CP scene I was not very comfortable with dressing as a schoolgirl. I did it but I always had my reservations. I guess the more you do something you get used to it and I actually started to enjoy regressing and acting out this type of scene. It is also a very popular roleplay, so I found myself doing it often. I will admit that one of my favorite films, is of me dressed like a schoolgirl.
So why the sudden change of heart?
On my journey to a shoot the other day my heart sank. I just did not want to dress as a schoolgirl. I feel I cannot play this role anymore. I am too old to be dressing up in a school uniform and acting like a brat. I am 33 years old. I understand the fact that people have their first feelings towards someone in a school uniform. I understand that people like to play out adult school girl fantasies, but I do not want to play this role anymore. I just cannot do it. Watching the news tonight I felt sick when I heard something that I will not go into. I thought to myself, that is it, no more.
So where does that leave me on adult school scenes?
I am not too sure at the moment. Would it make me a hypocrite to still be a teacher in a scene? I guess that is something I will have to work out myself. For now I am still comfortable with that, that may change. You see the thing is, as we grow in age, I guess we change and evolve.
This is probably career suicide, but I would not be being true to myself if I did things that I was no longer comfortable with.
In writing this I did not mean to upset anyone who enjoys this role-play this is just my own personal feelings and limits.
Very Brave Good luck in whatever you decide to do. I think everyone will understand and respect your decisions.
ReplyDeleteThank you. I have really struggled with writing this today for fear of upsetting people. But I have to do what I feel is right for myself.
DeleteThats all we can ever do, I know the news your talking about and I also know that this story has nothing to do with the 'school girl fantasy' I'm sure a lot of people will feel uncomfortable with this fantasy in light of recent events.
DeleteI'm sure what ever you decide to do will be successful and at the end of the day as long as it's right for you and makes you happy then no one has the right to be upset by it.
You're right it does not have anything to do with the schoolgirl fantasy, but for me it is the straw that broke the camels back. I am not saying that I am turning my back on CP. I am just saying that I no longer wish to play out this role-play. :)
DeleteI really don't see this as career suicide...
ReplyDeleteSessions should always be a 2-way street and as such they need to be negotiated and enjoyed by both parties. If you don't enjoy this particular role play then no one should want to force you to do it...
Why on earth would it upset anyone ... good for you I say !!
ReplyDeleteMarQe x
I for one would be more than happy to spank your delightful bottom with you dressed as a 33 year old!!
ReplyDeleteAndy x
I do agree with the others!
ReplyDeleteStating that you won't be doing schoolgirl actually make you more attractive for me and other who want to punish women not girls.
John
Many gentlemen do enjoy a schoolgirl scenario, as an innocent bit of fun, without any sordid connotations. But you are not alone, a number of the ladies on Spankeefinder have admitted they no longer enjoy schoolgirl roleplay. It was fun for a while, but like you, they have grown out of it. Career suicide, Never! Aleesha wearing something glamorous, you have sexier curves than a Ferrari. 33, you say! Like a good wine, you are just matured to perfection.
ReplyDeleteWhoops... was that my shoot when you dreaded thinking you had to play a schoolgirl? I had a great day filming you and we did make some fun and interesting stuff... eg) "Doctors & Nurses" has been out over a week at aaaspanking.com and I urge everyone to revel in the beauty of Aleesha as a hard put upon junior doctor bullied and punished by Nurse Zoe Page :)
ReplyDeleteThank you for all your kind words. It feels good to be honest to myself.
ReplyDeleteYou must do what you want to do with your own life Aleesha. Do not let anyone dictate how you live this one life that you get, it is yours, so enjoy it, and if others think any less of you for it, then it is their loss.
ReplyDeleteYou are a truly lovely person Aleesha, and being happy in what you do is as important to your friends , as it is to you!
It was great seeing you again today, and I have learnt a lot by catching up on here, stay true to yourslelf sweetheart, it is the only way to be!
Richard E