So today has been a strange one and I am going to try and write this post without upsetting too many people.
When I first got into the CP scene I was not very comfortable with dressing as a schoolgirl. I did it but I always had my reservations. I guess the more you do something you get used to it and I actually started to enjoy regressing and acting out this type of scene. It is also a very popular roleplay, so I found myself doing it often. I will admit that one of my favorite films, is of me dressed like a schoolgirl.
So why the sudden change of heart?
On my journey to a shoot the other day my heart sank. I just did not want to dress as a schoolgirl. I feel I cannot play this role anymore. I am too old to be dressing up in a school uniform and acting like a brat. I am 33 years old. I understand the fact that people have their first feelings towards someone in a school uniform. I understand that people like to play out adult school girl fantasies, but I do not want to play this role anymore. I just cannot do it. Watching the news tonight I felt sick when I heard something that I will not go into. I thought to myself, that is it, no more.
So where does that leave me on adult school scenes?
I am not too sure at the moment. Would it make me a hypocrite to still be a teacher in a scene? I guess that is something I will have to work out myself. For now I am still comfortable with that, that may change. You see the thing is, as we grow in age, I guess we change and evolve.
This is probably career suicide, but I would not be being true to myself if I did things that I was no longer comfortable with.
In writing this I did not mean to upset anyone who enjoys this role-play this is just my own personal feelings and limits.
When I first got into the CP scene I was not very comfortable with dressing as a schoolgirl. I did it but I always had my reservations. I guess the more you do something you get used to it and I actually started to enjoy regressing and acting out this type of scene. It is also a very popular roleplay, so I found myself doing it often. I will admit that one of my favorite films, is of me dressed like a schoolgirl.
So why the sudden change of heart?
On my journey to a shoot the other day my heart sank. I just did not want to dress as a schoolgirl. I feel I cannot play this role anymore. I am too old to be dressing up in a school uniform and acting like a brat. I am 33 years old. I understand the fact that people have their first feelings towards someone in a school uniform. I understand that people like to play out adult school girl fantasies, but I do not want to play this role anymore. I just cannot do it. Watching the news tonight I felt sick when I heard something that I will not go into. I thought to myself, that is it, no more.
So where does that leave me on adult school scenes?
I am not too sure at the moment. Would it make me a hypocrite to still be a teacher in a scene? I guess that is something I will have to work out myself. For now I am still comfortable with that, that may change. You see the thing is, as we grow in age, I guess we change and evolve.
This is probably career suicide, but I would not be being true to myself if I did things that I was no longer comfortable with.
In writing this I did not mean to upset anyone who enjoys this role-play this is just my own personal feelings and limits.
